"Double Life"

You think you know me well

But I’m playing a double life

If you asked, I would never tell

What I have done with a knife

You think I am always strong

And that this smile is true

Sorry, but you’re dead wrong

You don’t know what I do

There are feelings inside of me

That I cannot attempt to explain

Matched with scars I try to hide

They are evidence of my pain

A thousand nights I have cried

Tried to feel, but came out numb

A thousand times I have lied

Oh, what a wreck I have become

Would you care how much I bled?

Or how my skin is forever scarred?

Would you care if I were dead?

Or visit my grave out in the yard?

You can say I am here for a reason

You can ask and beg me to quit

Say this will pass with the season

Sorry but I’ve made another slit

It is an addiction and my only relief

“Get help” is easier said than done

I swore myself to silence like a thief

My world is shattered, I trust no one

This is me, a heart so shut

Now you see, I am cut

I wrote this for some friends...and myself...and others suffering from this. Please, know this is not healthy, you need help, and that the pain does end.