Monday, May 26, 2014


This is dedicated to the soldiers that fought, the soldiers that are fighting, and the soldiers that will fight. <3

Strong and brave
Their lives they gave
All hell broke loose
No hope of a truce

Youths that fought
Parents that shot
Lakes of thick blood
Bullets like a flood

Screams of the dying
Snarls of the lying
The bellows of guns
The sacrifice of sons

A mother's loud cry
A sisters desperate 'why'
Freedom had its cost
Love ones had been lost

Terrors eat the mind
Bodies they could not find
Limbs that were no more
Fire, blood, and gore

Man's innocence snatched away
The price they did pay
For generations to be free
And hope of a child's destiny

Tuesday, May 13, 2014

"Double Life"

You think you know me well
But I’m playing a double life
If you asked, I would never tell
What I have done with a knife

You think I am always strong
And that this smile is true
Sorry, but you’re dead wrong
You don’t know what I do

There are feelings inside of me
That I cannot attempt to explain
Matched with scars I try to hide
They are evidence of my pain

A thousand nights I have cried
Tried to feel, but came out numb
A thousand times I have lied
Oh, what a wreck I have become

Would you care how much I bled?
Or how my skin is forever scarred?
Would you care if I were dead?
Or visit my grave out in the yard?

You can say I am here for a reason
You can ask and beg me to quit
Say this will pass with the season
Sorry but I’ve made another slit

It is an addiction and my only relief
“Get help” is easier said than done
I swore myself to silence like a thief
My world is shattered, I trust no one

This is me, a heart so shut
Now you see, I am cut

I wrote this for some friends...and myself...and others suffering from this. Please, know this is not healthy, you need help, and that the pain does end. 

Wednesday, May 7, 2014

"Just Be Held"

Hold it all together
Everybody needs you strong
But life hits you out of nowhere
And barely leaves you holding on

And when you're tired of fighting
Chained by your control
There's freedom in surrender
Lay it down and let it go

So when you're on your knees and answers seem so far away
You're not alone, stop holding on and just be held
Your worlds not falling apart, its falling into place
I'm on the throne, stop holding on and just be held
Just be held, just be held

If your eyes are on the storm
You'll wonder if I love you still
But if your eyes are on the cross
You'll know I always have and I always will

And not a tear is wasted
In time, you'll understand
I'm painting beauty with the ashes
Your life is in My hands

Lift your hands, lift your eyes
In the storm is where you'll find Me
And where you are, I'll hold your heart
I'll hold your heart
Come to Me, find your rest
In the arms of the God who wont let go 
-Casting Crowns